A moment in time; An attempt at Introspection.
By: Compubomb @ Apr 01, 2006 @ 5:11 am
Ever have one of those days where you were somewhat upbeat and then suddenly you decide to do
something 'upbeat', then suddenly once again, you lose that enthusiasm to do something useful ? I
swear, my entire life seems to be short periods of motivation with a gravitation pull to piss it all
away within moments of inspiration.
If you know of me or actually know me you
will have learned that I'm a computer science major. Thing about us software nerds is we have so
many moments of inspiration it's hard to figure out what we should pursue as a goal. I mean there
are so many things I could get into, but I just lack that essential inspiration to tackle
problems.
I guess a lot of it also comes down to my study ethic as well. I mean I
do fairly decent in school considering I got an 88/B+ on my last Calculus 2 exam, but I never put in
that 100% effort to anything. I always balance off this idea that I could always be doing something
else. Pragmaticizing the goal at hand, that inspirational moment of beauty, then smashing it with a
lead fist because I suddenly lose interest or focus.
If anyone actually will see
this, how have you attempted to overcome your pragmastizicing (is that even a word?). I don't know
if it is that I procrastinate, or pragmastizicing (I guess this word is invented as to say are you
being pragmatic about what your spending your time on). I guess when I think about why I do this, I
think of the old saying, don't work hard; think smart. So I’m always looking around trying
to think what is useful and what I should work on that won't cause me to give up 10 minutes after I
start.