Lily states:

Existentialism isn't taking one day at a time It is the idea that humans can only be understood through their experienced individual reality as opposed to science or psychology or any other scientific means. It stresses the fact that you are master of your universe and ultimately the responsibility for your life is yours, and that your actions and decisions are the only ones that can truly effect who you are, and that you alone create any meaning in your life. It is not about not seeing the big picture. It is about taking responsibility for your actions and their consequences and creating your own big picture. I guess I stand corrected about the meaning of Existentialism. I guess the meaning of existentialism can be interpreted differently; the definition I received was one of a different meaning. Either way, I just mis-labeled what I wanted to say, I was more trying to I just convey a philosophy to some extent and how it did not co inside with my idea of what reality exerts on the human psyche. The philosophy goes something like this: Take life one day at a time for each day you live could be your last, enjoy each moment as though it were your last. Take life 1 stride at a time, anger and frustration require too much energy and thus are useless emotions--this is by no means exact or quoting the original philosophy.

Today is the last day of the potential semester until Sprint 2006 semester begins on I believe January 23. I've finished all of my finals and I'm uncertain as to the results on my chemistry final as to what I scored for my grade for all practical purposes. I scored an 88 percent on my Calculus 1 final which means I'm in good shape to move into Calculus 2; never thought I would reap this day. I woke up this morning freezing down to my bones; technically it was not freezing in my room, but it supposedly was 30F during the coldest part of the night--winder solstice coming soon--and I just didn't want to get up. I was and still so cold that I have on an entire sweat suite plus my bathrobe. I'm somewhat relieved that I don't have school for almost a month.

The assumption that one must live life one day at a time in my Honest and most humble opinion is quite the contrary. It would seem those who hold such assumptions to be true have a lack of experience towards human affect and to how an individual holds priorities in their life. To me, I can only look at living one day at a time if I lived in a vacuum; however, I don't live in a vacuum and life holds it's conditions and in order to live your life one day at a time, you must plan for all possible conditions which is really just impossible to do--Murphy's law states that if something can go wrong, it inevitably will go wrong. Living one day at a time to me states that I have an unlimited ability to say I can procrastinate as much as I like, as to spite the idea of planning life, to live as existentially as possible. But the inherent flaw in existentialism is that it conforms to no boundaries as long as you satisfy your appetite.

I've re-registered compubomb.com and compubomb.net for it's own sake of not being hijacked ever again by porn sites trying to get their hands on every domain possible to up their number of hits. My site has moved from compubomb.the-dev-solutions.net to www.compubomb.net Hopefully, this will be the premanent place of residing. I still own www.the-dev-solutions.net and i will own it for quite some time as it will eventually hold a place as being a launching point to jobs etc or just general information about who i work with and what i work on. I haven't worked much on any scripts or php for a great while. In part due to my school scedule. That will in most cases probably not change untill i graduate, which should be atleast another 5 years. I'll do my best to keep up to date, but i'm human and sometimes i just want to vegetate and do nothing.

So, I did reasonably well on my last 2 tests: chemistry, and calculus. Which I did reasonably decent on--seriously. But anyways, I got a 90% on my chem test which was a jaw dropping experience when I saw those 2 pretty digits on the front of that test. Then on the same day I got my chem test back, I took my calculus test and earned myself a 86% which is a staggering leap from 67%, which was the grade I earned previously in my calculus course. Anyways the ironic part to this whole story is that the only reason I believe I did [reasonably] well on these two tests was because I was talking to people and blowing off some tension before the anxiety had a chance to bite me in the ass. Normally, when I tell myself I'm going to do well--you can imagine the outcome--it normally turns into a miserable failure; normally i call this a brain fart. Anyways.. this post is more of a rambling of excitement but also of no true point.